Have you ever felt so out of control..... because things that you want depend not on the actions that you take but on the feelings and whims of others. I have spent my entire college career trying to obtain something that is very hard to obtain in the college setting.. Now I have one more chance before I graduate, I really would like to hope that this time around I have played my cards well and the next step will be into my goal... but then some small insecure part of me starts to question whether I have exposed myself enough...
I know that my goal is obtainable later on but now would be an excellent time... before my time here is up.
So S>>>> asked if he could come over and research with me.. what kind of question is that. I mean that is so assinine that one would assume that he was trying to hit on me, but I don't think that is the case. That only means that he had to be serious... which again makes absolutely no sense. I need focus... Ohhh and did I mention that he didn't show up. thus effectively wasting my time..... hmmm.
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